Part of the ‘My Happiness Project‘ series.
Read Part 2 : What makes me feel good?
What makes me feel bad?
Physically, not getting enough sleep makes me feel awful. Having a headache, or lazing around too much makes me feel crappy.
What brings me anger, guilt, boredom and dread?
There are lots of things that anger me. Personally, I need to get over some of it. Things like people being ignorant, rude, selfish or stupid. People who are consistently rude or ignorant or selfish are toxic. I read a quote posted on Facebook a few weeks back that basically said not to let toxic people take up space in your head. Its true and I’ve been trying to reprogram myself into not getting so upset over things like this. Its slow going but I’m determined to make this change.
There are a few things that make me feel guilty like overreacting; relaxing when hubby is cleaning or cooking even when I’ve already done my chores or its not my night for cooking. Sometimes, I can’t “turn off”. Taking up space/time with something that someone else needs (for example at home taking up the kitchen for cooking when someone else wants to use the kitchen, or the bathroom etc.).
Boredom. When I’m in a group and people are talking about something that I don’t enjoy or can’t provide input on. I often get bored and my thoughts stray. When hubby is playing video games, watching videos about other people playing video games or watching a show or movie I’m not interested in. Sitting around doing nothing. I can’t sit and do nothing. I’m usually crocheting or knitting when I’m sitting down (even if I’m watching a movie or show).
And lastly, what do I dread?
Having to ask someone a question or ask them for/to do something. As an introvert I’m generally very uncomfortable with asking people questions. This doesn’t apply in every instance, thankfully. There are times, at work, where I am very comfortable with asking questions and other times where I have to encourage myself. I’d rather try to find the answer on my own then have to ask someone sometimes. Its a big dread in my personal life. There’s only certain people I’m comfortable enough with to ask questions or ask them to do something.
Phoning people. I hate talking on the phone and having to call someone is not something I enjoy doing at all. If someone calls me at home, I have no problems with it but I have to work up the courage to phone people. Sometimes it will take me an entire day to work up the courage. Sometimes I chicken out and feel very guilty after for not picking up the phone and other times I get enough courage to phone and then it doesn’t seem like such a big deal.
Getting up in the morning on a week day and getting ready to go somewhere. These two are more dislikes. It takes a lot for me to get up in the morning; although with my getting up earlier in the morning during the week and allowing myself time to relax before heading off to work, its not so bad anymore. And once I’m at where I need to go, I’m fine. Its the having to get ready, and then travel that I dislike and dread a little.
What makes you feel bad?